Thursday, February 23, 2006

reality: alone, but not alone

The reality is that you are alone. You have few if any dedicated resources, you have little in the way of what might be graciously called "cover".

You are constantly under the microscope. You are measured and judged. Your decisions are questioned, your directions are second-guessed.

You have all the responsibility, yet no authority.

At least not in the traditional sense.

The authority you have is what you seize. The resources you obtain are those you bargain for. The cover you obtain is the sum total of your good deeds, your selflessness, your savvy, your ability to be everywhere at once.

Everyone is watching you because you are capable of true greatness.
At the still point of the turning world. Neither flesh nor fleshless;
Neither from nor towards; at the still point, there the dance is.

-- T.S.Eliot, Burnt Norton II, Four Quartets

1 comment:

Camie Vog said...

There are times that I'm not sure if I should congratulate you, or tell you that I wish things could be better for you. We're all dealt bizarre cards in our lives. Perhaps you can see how your life would have been different if you turned at the fork stuck in the road. I feel that you are an amazing person, who became stuck in the rut of everyone elses expectations.
Excellent post, by the way. I like it when you put your guard down and allow your readers into the workings of your brain.