The reality is that you are alone. You have few if any dedicated resources, you have little in the way of what might be graciously called "cover".
You are constantly under the microscope. You are measured and judged. Your decisions are questioned, your directions are second-guessed.
You have all the responsibility, yet no authority.
At least not in the traditional sense.
The authority you have is what you seize. The resources you obtain are those you bargain for. The cover you obtain is the sum total of your good deeds, your selflessness, your savvy, your ability to be everywhere at once.
Everyone is watching you because you are capable of true greatness.
At the still point of the turning world. Neither flesh nor fleshless;
Neither from nor towards; at the still point, there the dance is.
-- T.S.Eliot, Burnt Norton II, Four Quartets